Elvira Lutsenko

I exist | I exist. I breathe. I feel.

I have an infinite number of thoughts in my head, which become more and more intelligent as I get older, but at the same time they turn into a continuous stream of thinking, analysing, doubting, fearing, making excuses, feeling guilty, feeling ashamed, and all this goes through my head at an incredible speed, completely disconnecting me from the reality around me. Where am I? Who am I?

When I willfully switch to my sensations and the 'existing' reality around me, I feel truly alive and happy. I become really interested in creating without expectations and analysis, creating because I exist, creating because I can, touching what I have already created and transforming it again. Where is the end result and is it important? After all, time is linear, but energy is not.

The series of self-portraits were created in the moment of total commitment to the process, in different periods of time, in different emotional states, but with one aim - to explore myself and what I like, what I feel and how I can express it. I wanted to physically touch, feel and transform the 'result' of photography, which was not final, but intermediate.

I exist. The purpose of my project was to experience the value of being able to create and live. To live the importance of the process itself, not the end result. To accept my 'imperfection' and enjoy the opportunity to be myself. To be free of my own thoughts and expectations. elutsenkoart.mypixieset.com